Wednesday, February 22, 2012

heavy

i've never felt weight like i did this evening. of sin. of shame. of desperation. of completeness. of restoration. of redemption.

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

waiting for a 'no'

as Christians, we often spend time 'praying about things'. That be, our future, our relationships, our time, and so on. We 'dedicate' them to the Lord. Convinced that if we just say that we're praying about something, the Lord will very well bless our hearts with whatever we desire. Aligning our wants with His is something that we know to do, but rarely find ourselves living out to a place of fulfillment to glory.
Preparing our hearts for the opposite of our desires is hardly something we want to carry out, much less, deal with in a perilous reality. Receiving a 'no' from Jesus when we think we deserve a 'yes' is hard and undesirable.


But what about the times when we here the Lord give us a 'yes' to our own desires? When what He wants, clearly matches our's? He's just being vague about our next step? Or is He?

Too often we move forward when we have not been lead to on decisions that we probably shouldn't be considering anyway. And when we do, we can excuse it as 'God's Will' for our lives.
The issue comes when we have confused God with ourselves. Our hearts and longings tell us yes! Yes to the unwise financial decision. Yes to the new relationship. Yes to the new position. Yes to the flesh. The root of the issue is not moving forward or how to, but rather that we have confused the very center of our lives. God's power in our lives have been overshadowed by the power of our own wants, desire to receive them, and them to be as maximally satisfying as possible.
We've exchanged our true God with the one that is only ourselves. Of course that god said yes! of course there was motion toward our desire; they're all we're listening to anyway!

Unclouding our path and communication with Jesus is the best way to avoid this. Creating an open line with him on a basis that comes not from a time when we want answers alone, but a time when we can simply live to worship Him. When communication is no longer blocked by our own desires for the 'big decisions' in our lives, we are most free to see and seek His face so that we may more fully understand his heart, character and will to better live a life of glory. Receiving a surprising answer from God is often decreased in occurrence when we better know his Spirit.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

running over

the Gospel is life changing. and if its not life changing, it isn't the Gospel.


this truth is the mere scraping of the day. between such busy mondays that include two classes, one studio, two bible studies, working out and quality time, i was reminded of such.
We're forever selfish with the Gospel; dividing it out, as if grace is some sort of commodity to share with those we think most highly of or could make the best use of it. there needs to be less dividing and more multiplying, extending grace far beyond the limits of our human insight.
we limit our own use by not committing our ways fully to the Kingdom and its furthering. that said, how do we move beyond what we believe we are called to do? we hardly have a full grasp of the desire God has for us and his truth, and without a continued growth in perspective, how should we ever move beyond our own expectations. yearning for unfathomable motions of God's hand is essential to living a life that allows your cup to run over the sides and unto the lives of those we are commanded to expose the truth of the Gospel to.

so what is the point of the Gospel bringing life change? south carolina's bible belt feature allows for a great misunderstanding of the way that Jesus works. being good isn't enough.
a life change doesn't just appear outwardly. and it also doesn't just hide inwardly. a life change as a result of the Gospel, is one that penetrates the thickest of skin and past, one that emerges with the new dawn, one that radiates light from the once darkest of places, and brings hope to the most desolate of hearts.
in some, it is harder to see. and in others it is the most obvious of changes. but the change, of whatever degree is the essential piece. without it, there has been no encounter with the Gospel that is worth mentioning to oneself or the world.


so, multiply the kingdom. and penetrate the world with truth.

Saturday, January 07, 2012

change has come.

"The fair new petals must fall, and for no visible reason. No one seems enriched by the stripping.
And the first step into the realm of giving is a like surrender---not manward but Godward: an utter yielding of our best... The life lost on the Cross was not a sinful one---the treasure poured forth there was God-given, God-blessed treasure, lawful and right to be kept: only that there was the life of the world at stake."
Lilias Trotter

He gives all.
He asks all.

Monday, January 02, 2012

selfishness of the gospel.

my own selfishness of the Gospel was magnified today. the ability to have a conversation, much less a conversation centered around the Gospel, with a friend was eliminated. there's no going back at this point.
i thought a lot today about the last conversation i had with chance. actually, i thought about all the conversations i had with him. and i basically came to the conclusion that by [sin] nature, i am completely selfish with the Gospel.

my words are sometimes light, but most of the time, i just manage to get through life without mentioning the importance of the Lord, even in my own life. Geography classes and work shifts have been particularly easy to slide by when it comes to being intentional about the way that i carry myself and the Gospel.
I carry it like I know the elect. well, more like, i can choose the elect. i'll shine Light to those I think deserve it, not the ones that I think may be beyond the reach of the arms of Christ (the ones who most often need it most).

All will worship, so why not encourage the worship of Him now? why delay one's worship even further with my own stubborn and selfish -ness?

Sunday, January 01, 2012

'He has shown his people the power of his works, in giving them the inheritance of the nations.'
Psalm 111:6

As the 268generation begins to assemble in Atlanta I only wish I could be there. I pray that the kingdom is ever furthered by the Spirit's work there.
 
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