discovering myself

I've discovered that I really enjoy writing. Mostly my writing tends to be about me and my relationships with people. I guess since I began this blog a little over a year ago I have adapted to writing out my feelings instead of voicing them all the time. Probably part of the reason I am a lot quieter than I was about a year ago. When I have something to say I long to write, but that sometimes loses the person touch of things I guess. But when things start to cloud my mind and I'm just overwhelmed with thoughts I turn to my journal or a saved draft in my blog (if I feel like typing instead of writing) . Writing is nice, but I've almost lost any passion to for reading.
I love traditional relationships! Relationships in which the boy is forward and then as it grows he is still the one to take lead. The girl does not have the boy by a string pulling him to the way she wants, but rather him guiding her into not only a beautiful relationship with him, but one bringing them both closer to their Creator. These take not only our time, but also God's perfect timing. We all have to wait on Him.

but I need Him so much more.

women of God

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised"
~Proverbs 31:30

las primas de jaime

I miss Lindsay, Erin, Alyssa, Elizabeth, Megan, and Chasity already.

i don't particularly like coming up with these things..

Well, maybe it's time for a real post on what's going on in my life. Tomorrow Andrew and I will have been dating for eleven months. Which is a SUPER long time, but I give God all the credit for any of it ever working out. It's been quite a blessing.
Economics is HARD and really confusing the mess out of me. I've got to go see Coach Alford early tomorrow morning to see how I'm doing in there.
Other than that, school is alright. I finally got to get out my bass clarinet today in band, which was really nice even though I need to practice. All we do in Spanish now is watch movies and take a quizzes on sports vocabulary. Geometry is alright, but my grade in there could be a whole lot better. I'm scared of next semester. Pruitt, Evans, Trusky, and Sweeney all in one lovely semester. I really need to read that book for Mr. Trusky now that I'm thinking about it...
I need to figure out my major. I know I'm only a sophomore and I will probably change twenty times from anything I ever set, but I need to at least start thinking about colleges. I know how long it will take me to decide where I want to go, and that is why I need to go on and start thinking about it.
I sleep ALL the time now! Seriously, other than school my life consist of going to church, hanging out with Andrew, sleeping, and trying to answer calls when people call me on my cell phone while I'm sleeping. Try it some time, I will sound really weird...I think.
I think I should stop now. I'm just trying to make up things to write now.

hm..

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

Daddy

I hear and feel Him calling me.

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge,
but fools despise wisdom and discipline. Proverbs 1:7

church

Tonight was good. Church was astounding. Hallie, Katie Hatcher, Rachel, Georgia, Kate Stanton, Shelly, Little Debbie, Beka and I got the beautiful chance of being in the same small group. I was amazing. We had a wonderful time, and I got to spend time with some of the most amazingly strong girls I've ever met. Kate Stanton is amazing. She's gone through so much. Tonight was exactly what I needed. I love you, Daddy!!

Psalm 144:8

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.

i hope you like dancing in the rain

Today was a whole lot of fun. Chloe, Anna Grace, China, Mrs. Pat, and I all went to the Renassance Festival and it was hilarious. I don't have a whole lot more to say really other than...

"I hope you like dancing in the rain
I'll spin you around and pull you back to me
I sure am glad you wore that dress
It reminds me of the night that we first met
Don't you love the evenings in July
When I'm staring at you with my blue eyes
We could be fine
We could be fine, fine, fine..." ~The band from Florence

JOY!!

My away message right now:
"I am bursting with JOY!!! Guess who I get to see at the Casting Crowns concert tonight!!!! HAILEY HODGE AND MEGAN JONES!! I'm so excited about seeing them! :-D"

That's right! I'm really super thrilled about seeing both of them! I could never get enough of their smiling faces!!
And Anna Grace and Chloe are supposed to be spending the night with me Friday and then we're planning to go to the Renaissance Festival! This weekend is going to be fun! And it hasn't even started yet!

;-)

Andrew White is one cool kid..even though he's not a kid at all. Okay, he's one cool boyfriend.

When the Rain Comes

when the rain comes it seems that everyone has gone away
when the night falls you wonder if you shouldn't find some place
to run and hide
escape the pain
but hiding such a lonely thing to do

i can't stop the rain
from falling down on you again
i can't stop the rain
but i will hold you 'til it goes away

when the rain comes you blame it on the things that you have done
when the storm falls you know that rain must fall on everyone
so rest a while
it will be alright
no one loves you like i do

i can't stop the rain
from falling down on you again
i can't stop the rain
but i will hold you

i can't stop the rain
from falling down on you again
i can't stop the rain
but i will hold you 'til to goes away

when the rain comes..
i will hold you

-third day

hmm

Let me know what you think. If a girl cheats on her boyfriend with a guy who is to blame?

Only the girl?
Only the guy?
Or both?

It's been a long past few days. State seems like almost a week ago. Speaking of state, we got 4th! Which is good, but I honestly think that we deserve much better. But we finally broke the 6th streak and we beat the Cheraw Marching Band's record for all time highest at state. It's pretty cool, but I so wish we could have gotten better.
Andrew and Kevin are at it again, but it's not like one of them is leaving out the other. It's Christian morals and the Holy Spirit being a conscience. I hate this! Andrew is disappointed.
Andrew and I have hung out a lot lately. Him, Chloe, and I too..that's a sort of weird group, but it's been a lot of fun. Chloe always makes me laugh.
Anyway, that was pretty random and I'm tired. My brother got Star Wars Episode III today. I might go watch it for a little while.