hurt

"Love is like war: easy to begin, hard to end." -Proverb

"Time tells the truth." -Fortune cookie

"When life hands you a lemon, say, "Oh yeah, I like lemons. What else ya got?" -Henry Rollins

". . . I will never leave you nor forsake you. . . " -Joshua 1:5b

grace

i love it. a night with some of my favorite girls, a quick phone call from andrew, news that he will be coming home next weekend, and the thought of having to wake up around eight tomorrow morning ;-)
quite possibly one of the greatest times i'll have all month (with a touch of sarcasism surrounding the having to wake up around eight fact).

so i found my favorite sermon podcast again yesterday. that was pretty exhilarating!

phone calls

i got to talk to Kevin today. that was nice even though i wish i could have talked to him longer.

It would be pretty insane, but I think that Clara Snipes and I danced with the same company when I was about four years old. I need to talk to her about it (and everything else) though.

". . . I will never leave you nor forsake you. . ." Joshua 1:5b

uncertain

something's missing. . .

what's my problem?

not someone to help forget my problem. .

but someone to help solve my problem.

my favorite.

i love when my brother goes to spend the night at a friends house and takes the sophisticated toothpaste and leaves me with the bubble gum tasting gunk. ;-D

yuck

so i was just sitting here after the snow day and i got one of those feelings that david says he get sometimes where he just starts feeling really bad for himself and sort of depressed. it was pretty horrible. and it's pretty sad that i felt that way. . i need to go read. .

""But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds." Psalm 73:28

i have dreams and

those dreams are beautiful.

SALT (I will always call it that) Retreat

Our leadership retreat at the beach was amazing. This was probably one of my favorite times with some of my favorite Cheraw friends. Spiritual bonding thrived and we had so much fun. There are pictures on facebook if you want to see them.
I was having a quiet time one morning down near the dock and I could not even focus on anything else but God's beautiful creation. I just sat in awe of His gracious and perfect self. It was marvelous.

Lately, I've realized what a relational religion Christianity is. This revelation probably has a lot to do with the fact that I'm reading Donald Miller's Searching for God Knows What. But we talked about it during one of our session times too.

"Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like a sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples "The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field." Matthew 9:35-38

lots of big smiles.

the Lord makes me so excited! I love to see him work in my friends lives. And I love to see them respond to his glory in an excited way!

“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him. 1 John 5:14-15

anna

i love how anna grace questions her friendship with me.

i want to fly somewhere. somewhere overseas.

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I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I know, you're thinking my brain must be killing me! Anyway, and I have just noticed how fortunate I am. It's pretty crazy that I have been blessed like I have. Praise the Lord!

;-)

amazing, i say!

Triple A

my life is silly. it makes me smile. Just like my Rock does. ;-)

Andrew, Andy, Adam, and the rest of their team are offically in Uganda. Pray for them as they serve the Lord.

pre. .

"Blessed are those you choose, and bring near to live in your courts! We are filled with the good things of your house, of your holy temple." Pslam 65:4

life is so humorous.

RK!

I'm loving the new Relient K singles that can be found on iTunes!

". . . and you should thank the Lord that it is Him, and it's not me!"

hmm. .

quit is such a harsh word.

hilary

as if i didn't miss Hilary enough, i miss her even more now! I just got off the phone with her and that time passed so quickly, too quickly. I really think that i am in great need of time with her. I just think that it would make me feel good inside. wow, i miss her and camp so much.

you know, you don't really think about small details like ringing the bell, unless you are at camp. But we talked about ringing the bell and it almost made me cry because I could hear it ring in my ears. I can't wait to be back!

my favorite.

this weekend=amazing.

how i love those ballets and the dinner/snack/dessert afterwards with some of my favorite loves from Sumter. I love those girls, and the few guys i know. I certainly am thankful for their hearts that serve the Lord completely. How inspiring!
It was great to actually see Andrew and his skinny (yes, you are skinny!) self, instead of only talking to him on the phone. He challenges me.
So i really need to start driving around town so i will be able to drive to Sumter by myself. Oh how i will hardly ever be home!

"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be fulfilled." Matthew 5:6

professional sports are overrated

i really don't have that much to say, but i certainly desire a return to where my heart is happiest. i wish i could have made it to camp this weekend, but i suppose it's okay that i couldn't. i miss the people, the beds, the smells, everything about it.
I feel like i am hardly ever true to the people in cheraw because i don't want to ever admit to them that i desire to be somewhere different. not only physically, but spiritually. i desire a constantly uplifting relationship with others that i seem to experience very little of in my daily life. and i don't want them to be hurt, by me saying this, but rather them encourage me to build a life fulfilling in praise; worshipping the Lord with every fiber. of course, i know i have room to grow, so i am in no way condemning. i just think it could be so amazing if my love for the Lord was encouraged as much as trying to be cool and spending time with friends is.
God deserves so much more than what so many give Him. It couldn't be more unfair. How is he so self-less?

"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer."
Psalm 19:14

the class of two thousand six.

I love my talks with Randell. I don't get to see this 2006 graduate that often, but when i do I always enjoy our conversations no matter what we end up talking about. what a cool guy.

some of those class members have disappointed me, but there are a few that i absolutly love. those that strive to be their best for the Lord are my favorites.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strenth." Mark 12:30