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"You are more beautiful than anyone one EVER! Everyday you're the same you never change. NO NEVER!" ~David Crowder Band

I want to be the girl that sang this song and showed that love I have for Him with everyone. I want to be like Him and never change from that girl that He shines through! I have to be that girl again first.

"How could you be so good to me?!" ~David Crowder Band

"Over coming these obstacles is over coming my fears. Never under estimate my Jesus. You're telling me that there's no hope, I'm telling you, you're wrong!..." Relient K

"I AM FREE! I am free to run! I am free to dance! I am free to live for you! I am free!" Acquire the Fire CD

You know, I really am free to live for Him, to worship His greatness and not be told by the government not to, I should exercise this like I know it. Right now it seems to be a useless freedom. "How great is our God?"

I want to be the loud mouth who was loud because she was bursting with love from her Jesus! I NEED TO BE

BOLD!

yucky

The past few days have been abnormally stressful. I've just had a hard time figuring out some things (not that they are all figured out now). I've had really awful feelings and I would seriously rather be physically sick (not with a disease, just physically feeling awful) than feel the way I do. I'm on the edge a lot, but I do a pretty good job putting on a mask so no one really realizes anything is wrong.

I don't think I am the only person that's having emotional problems right now.

Often I've found myself wishing I had the assurance I have with God in all my relationships. Not that people are letting me down necessarily, I just don't feel confident in them. I know God will always be there for me and I have absolute assurance he will never leave me. I mean, come on, he's already died for every sin I have and will ever do, why would he abandon me now? Christ is so amazing!

I've had a hard time with so much lately. Pray for me.

I love Mrs. Lyall White! <3

New Layout

Suprised you, huh? Yep, a new layout and when I say new layout I mean it's not a blogger template that I've been forced to used over the past two or so years I've had this blog. It's fun and new, and hopefully, it will be changed a lot more often.

Well, this has been a pretty uneventful weekend. I was sick on Friday and now Andrew is sick. He's had a bit of a fever though, I never had anything that bad, just a cough and feeling crummy. Hopefully he'll feel better tomorrow and since we have a day off we can squeeze in something to do to count this weekend as something.

I did get a good opportunity to see Him and His amazing self more clearly.

<3

me..?

I have very little to say,



but I do need to talk with a few.



I'm emotionally tired...yet



at the same time, I couldn't be more awake.

"...Convince me, because I really need your help. Oh convince me, because I can't see this for myself..."

Phone Calls..

Have you ever called someone's house at night and as soon as the phone rings you realize there are other people in their house who were probably asleep and you might have woken them up? Well, I'm so glad God's not like that. I can call on Him any time I want to! He'll be right there for me and I don't have to worry about something silly. God doesn't judge me and isn't a family member that might be angered when His help is needed or when I just need someone to talk to. He is wonderful.

My Captain!

Oh how I kidney Anna Grace! It was so awesome talking to her tonight! Could she be my "Ashley Porter?"

Yay for "Romantic Comedy Soundtrack 90s" Music!

"...Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine." -Isaiah 43:1

a bubble bath

I took a bubble bath tonight. It was good and now I smell like Sweet Pea. I was sitting there listening to David Crowder Band and started playing with the bubbles. It reminded me of being a child and how I now need to have child-like faith with Jesus, to lean completly on Him for everything. I need to be like a child and absorb everything He gives me in life and understand that it is straight from God. He is so amazing.

today, etc.

Well, today was probably the best day I've had all week. It was definatly interesting. Andrew, Kevin (yeah, the same Kevin that Andrew hasn't spoke to in four months), and I went out to Fiesta. It was a little akward, but I think maybe it was good. I don't think that Kevin and Andrew are going to be best friends again, but hopefully they can get past the weird, I don't have any idea what to say to you stage. When I talked to Kevin on the phone to ask him if he wanted to go he said he missed me. I missed the Kevin that I knew the week before anything awful happened.
Anyway, Anna Grace, Captain Crunch, will be coming to Cheraw this weekend and I'm excited about hanging out with her and Chloe (she needs a cereal name!). I think the plan might be to go to the basketball game, spend the night at Chloe's and then go to Hartsville and Chloe will be driving. But I'm not sure if that's going to go through, the going to Hartsville part, just because Chloe hasn't had her license that long. I really want everything to work out though!
Well, I need a whole lot more Jesus time. I know that if I miss Him, then of course He misses me.
Rachel, thanks for the comment! You are a beautiful daughter of God!