Saturday, December 03, 2011

rewashing.

strings wearing thin;
needing to be replaced.
may they be as my hands,
rewashed.
for another sin to be cleansed.

curing the skin;
being made brand new.
though it is not easy,
tightened.
for another chance is given.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

sky

and i can't help but wonder
if you're glimpsing at the same star tonight.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

10 seconds

oh autumn.
the way you smell.
the way you make me
feel.

i long for an extra
pair of arms.
of the knight variety.
though not quite
as cold
as the metal type.

embers burning
beside.
hearts burning
inside.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Thursday, October 20, 2011

sons&daughters

'Will your grace run out
If I let you down
‘Cause all I know
Is how to run

‘Cause I am a sinner
If its not one thing its another
Caught up in words
Tangled in lies
You are the Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful

Will you call me child
When I tell you lies
Cause all I know
Is how to cry

I am a sinner
If its not one thing its another
Caught up in words
Tangled in lies
You are the Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful

You make it beautiful
You make it beautiful'

brokenness aside

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

hands

'the water there is deeper than anything you've ever seen
jump right in and swim until you freeze

I will remember your face
'cause I am still in love with that place'

atlas hands
b.f. leftwich



Monday, September 05, 2011

you really gotta hold on me.

"i love you
and all i want
you to do
is just
hold me
hold me
hold me
hold me."
she&him

Sunday, August 14, 2011

self. written a while back.

self loving

in a house of

mirrors

reflecting only

ourselves,

our wants,

our blood


self loathing

in a house of

mirrors

broken by

ourselves,

our bones,

leaking

our blood


Tuesday, July 26, 2011

baby brothers&sisters

maybe i should update about asia more often. its busy here. draw conclusions from there.

its hard to believe that our time in hong kong has so quickly come to an end. we have three more days with students at school and a little hang out time planned with some of them outside of such. things seemed to go by so much quicker this year. and i can't be sure why. and i have mixed feelings about it for sure.

sunday morning i realized just how much i enjoy and need time with very young children. we're talking ages 3 to 5 here. i just like hanging out with them. last week came with an opportunity to serve at Watermark Community Church in the children's classroom. oh how i loved it. their want to be independent enough to sit on their own, but finally admitting that they'd rather perch on my lap is my favorite. and they cuddle so well.

i miss my baby brother. i'm missing summers where he's cool enough to actually hang out with and not totally grate my nerves. i need that kid in my life. i look forward to him meeting me at the airport on august 9th.

be praying for our next flight. i'll be leading both my team and another and look forward to all that the vision trip has in store! oh, and since i mentioned children, i'd say that i'm quite looking forward to the trip to an orphanage while we are there. although, i may come back with a beyond broken heart for the children. .


but Jesus said,
'let the little children come to me,
and do not hinder them,
for the kingdom of heaven
belongs to such as these."'
Matthew 19:14

Friday, July 15, 2011

warm fuzzies

letters from home come in the form of email nowadays. letters from mainland come in the same. and i realize that they're my favorite.

i love emails. they're much more personal that a silly facebook message. so stay classy.


as far as the rest of hong kong goes. . . its such a mixed bag. which makes it real. moments are
fabulous and fulfilling.
others are dismal and depressing.
then back to delightful
and yet there's a
constant pressure and persistence
of the school officials
to move our program from and English camp to some kind of insane tutoring program. . . also not what we're about. That said, its been challenging. School days always leave room for the unexpected and with the constant adjustments my team and I are having to make, we would certainly welcome any available prayers!


Aside from such, things are going well. I get to see some of my students from last year tomorrow and that's certainly exciting!
Asia is as lovely as ever. I'm not sure what all the King has for me following this adventure, but I'm enjoying it now. and making the most of new and old relationships. pray for a balance. not of the relationships, but of my own time and the relationships. i'm learning just how much time I really do need for myself for processing, for growing, for my own heart and for the sake of others. I'm just no fun to be around if I haven't had time for Steph in a few days.


“Therefore, my beloved brothers,
be steadfast, immovable,
always abounding in the work of the Lord,
knowing that in the Lord
your labor is not in vain.”
-I Cor. 15:58

Thursday, July 14, 2011

a quote for good measure

'we are debtors to every man to give him the gospel in the same measure in which we have received it."
-P.F. Bresee

more on Asia later.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

an ELIC welcome!

ohhhhh man. Its good to be back in Asia. I won't lie, the journey was long and difficult. But I'm so glad I'm finally here. ELIC has the very best people! Fellow team leaders are amazing. ELIC staff is oh so great! and the folks that are assisting in training. . . da best!! So if you're coming, GET EXCITED! and if you're following what's going on in Asia, be sure to see the Camp blog too! http://campblog.elic.org/ features a lovely picture of myself and Megan Wynd soak and wet after an outrageous downpour on the way up the mountain for our training retreat sight. Speaking of Wynd, its been so good to be reunited with her. We're pretty much different body types of the same person. Its fantastic. I was warmly welcomed by her and this. . .'The Skip's' is my fave. It kinda makes Asia, Asia. Chocolate and peanut butter together like none other.

In our team leader free time we all usually sit around in the same room and communicate via internet connection. with laughs out loud all around. which is what we're doing now as i type this up. And on that note, its not even ten, but jet lag is kinda kicking in. .

Monday, June 27, 2011

asia. round 2.

Well, departure is here again. I'm waking up at 5:30am to get ready to board a flight back across the world. I'm returning to Hong Kong for five weeks of my summer and I've never had more mixed emotions in my life.
I'm anxious. I love Asia, I know I love Asia. But this is a summer when I could really see if Asia is it for me. If its more than just a place to invest a few summers while in college. To be completely honest, I don't know what to anticipate in the way of such things.
I'm inadequate. I'm honestly not sure I've ever felt more inadequate about anything in my life. And here I am, preparing to lead a team on the other side of the world while we work together in teaching English. Very little about that statement makes very much sense to me. Thankfully, I have been reminded of a verse in second Corinthians:
"That is why, for Christ’s sake,
I delight in weaknesses,
in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong."
(12:10)
I'm excited. I'm going back to one of the most beautiful places I've ever laid my eyes on. I get to be reunited with some friends from last year. and I get to connect with hearts that are yearning so heavily for the Gospel. Asian culture is magnificent. Chopsticks, walking everywhere, dark hair, tonal language. ohhhh man. I'm excited.
and yet, my heart remains heavy. Be praying for restoration. Be praying for guidance. Be praying for strength. Thank you, my friends.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

take flight, my dear.

the morning begins its song
it breaks the loudness
of my own shouting thoughts
i've been restless for hours

days
awaiting the moment
the world distracts
when day begins
and my brain can finally
rest
as the lark sings
he contemplates flight
i envy the thought ability
to spread his wings and
fly

'earmuffs'

'hello darkness, my old friend
i've come to talk with you again
because a vision softly creeping
left its seeds while i was sleeping
and the vision that was planted
in my brain, still remains
within the sound of silence.'
simon and garfunkel

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Handle with Care

A word about my past: I used to be so careful. Not speaking. Not sharing. Not bold. Such could not be attributed to my character at all. I handled every situation with care and consideration.

A reminder to myself: My personality has changed. Experience forced extroverted-ness. I respond quickly. Sometimes too quickly now. Some situations require much more care than I give them.

A warning for others: I am broken. Well, now repaired, but very easy to be found in a dysfunctional state again. So to others, I warn, please do indeed handle my love and your's with gentleness.

A way I have been carried: I have been picked up by the only one that could. He has handled me with the most care one could ever know. I don't deserve this, for I have bitten the hand that feeds far too often.


Given the expectation to describe myself and my life in three words, these are the ones I chose.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

perplexed.

Every religion is about how we can get closer to god. the exception is Christianity, in which God became closer to us. the perplexities of my God is absolutely astounding. for we can do and have done nothing to make ourselves closer to him, for he draws near to us.

Friday, April 22, 2011

good friday

'One choice
One tree
One fall for humanity
One lie
One liar
One bite is all death required
One great regret
One squandered chance, and yet
One hope
One day
One name above all other names
One bridge between then and now
One way to discover how
One price
One tree
One drop of crimson covers me'

Nichole Nordeman

Friday, January 07, 2011

day three.

eight ways to win your heart (in no particular order):

1. have a sense of style that's completely your own. and is easily a blend of a number of influences.
2. embrace me. i'm a little weird. and can apparently be a little overwhelming. but i honestly don't mean to be. at all. so, just embracing me is nice.
3. laugh.
4. love the Lord more than you love me or anything else in life.
5. enjoy physical touch; its my love language.
6. challenge me. especially spiritually.
7. talk with me. be willing to have chats. about any and everything concerning life.
8. honesty. all the time. about everything. only one person has ever fulfilled such fully in my life.

asia.

sometimes. a lot of times. most of the time. all the time. it doesn't seem practical.
 
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