Hammock

I want a hammock really bad. It's not something I've always just had an abnormal desire for, but I want a hammock so I can go outside on warm days and just lay there and think and talk to God and read and whatever I just felt like doing at the moment. That was a total run-on, but who cares!? School is out! Well, I guess there have actually been times when I really wanted a hammock. Like the time when my neighbor and I ran from her dog (or maybe it was just me because I was just scared of the dog) and just sat there looking at him because he was about the size of us put together. He's a huge Saint Bernard. And then there's the time at Kate's house for her birthday party or something when a bunch of our friends were hanging out on her hammock and made it turn over with a bunch of us on it. That sort of hurt. At least, I think that happen. It might have been a dream. But I do know that Kate had a hammock either way. Hammocks are almost like a safe place for me (at least other than falling out of them). One saved me from being eaten by my neighbor's dog. Well, it's totally weird that I have strange and completely random memories of hammocks. Maybe I have always wanted one, just never admitted it to myself..

today

I feel like typing up a post, but I really don't know what to say. Today was pretty cool. I babysat Brynna and Courtney this morning until around 12:45 when Andrew picked me up and we went to Movie Gallery to meet Kevin and Katie. We sat in his car for a while waiting on them, and I found out that he won't be able to go to Ambassador Camp...at ALL!! I honestly don't understand why because I know he wants to go more than anything in the world!! We rented Spanglish, and then we went to "The Pig" and he actually let me buy him ice cream to try to make him feel a little better. But there's no way ice cream could make him feel better about that situation :-/. So we watched Spanglish with Kevin and Katie, which was nice. There was a hilarious comment about calling someone 40 times and leaving messages can seem a little needy! I guess it was hysterical because when Andrew and Kevin were mad, Andrew probably called Kevin 50 times! Not that Andrew's needy!!!
Anyway, after they left I took a shower and then went to M.N.M for our Monday night Bible Study for church. There were only four other people there, including Mr. T (Shelly, Ryan, David, and me). But I had a pretty good time, and I'm pretty excited about our study. We're using Max Lucado's book, It's Not About Me.

From the fullness of his grace we have all recieved one blessing after another. John 1:16

Random Thoughts

Number of times I've seen Star Wars Episode III: 3
Money I've spent on tickets: $8.00
(Andrew bought my ticket one time, and my dad bought it another)
It's basically a pretty great movie and now I guess you could classify me as a Star Wars geek. I've got to be one of the only girls around that actually appreciates Star Wars.

Erin is supposed to come to graduation tomorrow. I'm pretty excited. Even though I acted like I wasn't when Andrew first told me. Key word there: acted. Of course I'm excited!!! :-D
So graduation is tomorrow. It's pretty sad to see my few senior friends leave. I'm really going to miss Katie, MK, and Ryan. Church and band are going to be really different are going to be really different without the three of them. The fact that they're leaving hasn't quite hit me yet though..

Hopefully Andrew and Kevin are officially friends again. I don't know about the "Boy Meets World" times being totally back, seeing as we all spend so much time with Majik, Collin, and Jonathan now, but talk to each other now. I hope everything clicks again like it did a while back..

missing.

I miss the good ol' "Boy Meets World" times. I wonder if they'll ever be back...

Mini Cooper

That was so cool. Mr. Bryan just took me for a ride in the mini and that had to be one of the coolest things EVER! Other than Kevin taking his shirt of today at the park (okay, okay, okay---I'm honestly just kidding!!!!!!)!! Anywho, it was pretty excited and they have a ton more room then they look like they have. I'm telling you, those are NICE cars!
Well, back to my last post...I'm A-okay. I worry too much for stupid reasons and there's nothing wrong with me. At the moment life's pretty good, other than waiting for school to get out! Well, I just had to make sure everybody knew that. ;-D

Defining Moment

You know that feeling when you know you did something wrong and everything just goes downhill from there? Maybe you don't. But for those of you who do understand, well, that's exactly how I feel right now. I dispose it. Especially since I can pinpoint that defining moment of when I messed up and ruined everything! I wish I could take it back because now I feel terrible. No, I haven't done something un-Christian like have sex outside of marriage or stolen anything. I just don't want to talk to anyone about it right now, but I've ruined my summer, or so it seems. I messed up and now I don't know what I could ever do about it. I've lost trust and I honestly don't know if I will ever get it back. Everything's fake now, but I'm dealing with the world...what do I expect?

Whoa-o...I've been banging my head against the wall
Whoa-o...For so long it seems I knocked it down.
Yeah, it got knocked down
Whoa-o...And the heating bill went through the roof
Whoa-o...And the wall I knocked down was the proof
That my landlord needed to kick me out
I got evicted now I'm living on the street
My spirit's lifted...oh wait, that wasn't me
Too many turns have turned out to be wrong
This time I learned that, I knew it all along
When car crashes occur
Then I'll be what you were
When I see what I should
When I see that it's good
To experience the bittersweet
To taste defeat
Then brush my teeth
Experience the bittersweet
To taste defeat
Then brush my teeth
Cause I struggle with forward motion
I struggle with forward motion
We all struggle with forward motion
Cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
Well every time I gain some ground
gotta turn myself around again
Whoa-o...I've been banging my head against the wall
Whoa-o...For so long it seems I got knocked out.
Yeah, I got knocked out cold.
Whoa-o...And the medical bills went through the roof
Whoa-o...and the scar on my head is the proof
That I'll still remember this when I get old
When I grasp the concept
Then I'll sleep where you slept
When I know I need help
When I allow myself
~Relient K

hmmm...

I care too much about what other people think about me. I used to not so much, but I do now...it's actually pretty annoying. Loser...
Anyway, I'm actually on a role here updating every couple of days and whatnot. Seems pretty silly considering I pretty much say the same thing every time I do though. Just that I'm ready for summer and all that jazz.
This is actually a very pointless post, but because I took the time to even write it makes me think I might as well publish it..

Basically

I'm ready for summer. I miss everybody in Sumter, I actually got to go the other weekend. Let me tell you, it was exciting! Erin, Alyssa, Megan, and Elizabeth were in a ballet and it was so beautiful!!! We rode golf cars and four-wheelers, played the OLD Nintendo, and had a lot of fun. Goodness, I love that place and the people there! I got to see Latete, Haley, and Rebekah too!
The next couple of days are going to consist of nothing after school, other than if we have homework, and we better not! But Andrew's on that AP trip and Kevin and I aren't going to do something together, just the two of us, because that would seem weird and neither of us ever plan anything. So I guess I'm basically going to be chilling at my house doing nothing for a while.
I'm so ready to get out of school! Thank goodness, that essay for Mr. Stafford will be out of the way tomorrow!! :-D

Updating!

nor·mal
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;-D

Well, I haven't updated in a while and someone asked me about it so I figured it was about time I popped in. There's too much going on; what with school, Freshman 101 marching stuff, preparing for National History Day, church, writing essays, and getting ready for exams and such. You could say I'm staying pretty busy. I'm totally ready for my busy summer to get here! Seriously, I think I'm gonna have like two weeks to myself, even though most...all of the stuff I will be doing with at least one friend. I just don't know how long I will be able to make it. I have to babysit four days of the first week I get off. The next week there's VBS, then Nationals and SummerSalt. Two weeks of hanging out, my birthday, two weeks of Ambassador Camp, and the next week marching band practice starts! This should be an interesting summer, but I'm SUPER excited.
Goodness, it feels like it should be Friday...and it's only Wednesday.