Overthinker

"I was thinking, overthinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to analyze, look in my eyes
cause you're my dream please come true.
I was thinking, overthinking
about exactly how I'm not exactly him
I'll break my heart in two more times than you could ever do
cause you're my dream please come true.
cause I think way too much on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch cause I'm so far behind
I can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if there's one in this world, you let me know you're not that girl.
I was sinking, lower sinking
cause I lost the things I held on to
they let me think a thought a thought a thought that I would
know was not
of seeing my dreams come true
I was thinking, overthinking
about how far I had let this go
one more guy/girl cliche I know now you're just in the way
of me and my dream come true.
cause I think way too much on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch cause I'm so far behind
I'm trying to make sense out of all of this
while you're fading scent just slips through my grip
I can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if there's one in this world, you'll let me know you're not
that girl.
don't touch the positive with the negative end
don't touch the positive with the negative end
cause after all the sparks you're left alone in the dark
cause after all the sparks you're left alone in the dark
and while I'm able, I think I'll label
experience with you as a mistake
and while I'm at it, I'll say I've had it
experience with you is a mistake
cause I think way too much on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch cause I'm so far behind
I'm trying to make sense out of all of this
while you're fading scent just slips through my grip
I was thinking, over thinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to think about to figure out
if you're my dream please come true" ~Relient K

I really am an overthinker. And it is a terrible thing because it put so many worrisome thoughts in my head, and worrying stresses me out and I already have that paper to stress over.
Church tonight was good though. I miss my mission trip children, and all those good relationships back then, even though it wasn't that long ago. I never thought I would miss it, but I actually even miss my ride home with all the boys, even though I got sick. God is astounding and I wish I knew Him soo much more. I hope I have some good ol' time tomorrow on the hammock with God. I need to have a talk with him. I'm basically done with my paper, I might actually go now.