lots of big smiles.

the Lord makes me so excited! I love to see him work in my friends lives. And I love to see them respond to his glory in an excited way!

“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him. 1 John 5:14-15

anna

i love how anna grace questions her friendship with me.

i want to fly somewhere. somewhere overseas.

.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I know, you're thinking my brain must be killing me! Anyway, and I have just noticed how fortunate I am. It's pretty crazy that I have been blessed like I have. Praise the Lord!

;-)

amazing, i say!

Triple A

my life is silly. it makes me smile. Just like my Rock does. ;-)

Andrew, Andy, Adam, and the rest of their team are offically in Uganda. Pray for them as they serve the Lord.

pre. .

"Blessed are those you choose, and bring near to live in your courts! We are filled with the good things of your house, of your holy temple." Pslam 65:4

life is so humorous.

RK!

I'm loving the new Relient K singles that can be found on iTunes!

". . . and you should thank the Lord that it is Him, and it's not me!"

hmm. .

quit is such a harsh word.

hilary

as if i didn't miss Hilary enough, i miss her even more now! I just got off the phone with her and that time passed so quickly, too quickly. I really think that i am in great need of time with her. I just think that it would make me feel good inside. wow, i miss her and camp so much.

you know, you don't really think about small details like ringing the bell, unless you are at camp. But we talked about ringing the bell and it almost made me cry because I could hear it ring in my ears. I can't wait to be back!

my favorite.

this weekend=amazing.

how i love those ballets and the dinner/snack/dessert afterwards with some of my favorite loves from Sumter. I love those girls, and the few guys i know. I certainly am thankful for their hearts that serve the Lord completely. How inspiring!
It was great to actually see Andrew and his skinny (yes, you are skinny!) self, instead of only talking to him on the phone. He challenges me.
So i really need to start driving around town so i will be able to drive to Sumter by myself. Oh how i will hardly ever be home!

"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be fulfilled." Matthew 5:6

professional sports are overrated

i really don't have that much to say, but i certainly desire a return to where my heart is happiest. i wish i could have made it to camp this weekend, but i suppose it's okay that i couldn't. i miss the people, the beds, the smells, everything about it.
I feel like i am hardly ever true to the people in cheraw because i don't want to ever admit to them that i desire to be somewhere different. not only physically, but spiritually. i desire a constantly uplifting relationship with others that i seem to experience very little of in my daily life. and i don't want them to be hurt, by me saying this, but rather them encourage me to build a life fulfilling in praise; worshipping the Lord with every fiber. of course, i know i have room to grow, so i am in no way condemning. i just think it could be so amazing if my love for the Lord was encouraged as much as trying to be cool and spending time with friends is.
God deserves so much more than what so many give Him. It couldn't be more unfair. How is he so self-less?

"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer."
Psalm 19:14

the class of two thousand six.

I love my talks with Randell. I don't get to see this 2006 graduate that often, but when i do I always enjoy our conversations no matter what we end up talking about. what a cool guy.

some of those class members have disappointed me, but there are a few that i absolutly love. those that strive to be their best for the Lord are my favorites.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strenth." Mark 12:30

bees and their secret lives

"Drifting off to sleep, I thought about her. How nobody is perfect. How you just have to close your eyes and breathe out and let the puzzle of the human heart be what it is."
-The Secret Life of Bees

my tears piled on the thin line below my eyes making it practically impossible to read. but slowly they fell and i felt them in my pores, in my heart. i loved this book. yes, you could say that i want to be able to write just like Sue Monk Kidd, but that doesn't always seem to work out.

"Not just to love---but to persist in love."
-The Secret Life of Bees

excitement.

it's good to know that He wants to encourage me. and too spend time with me. that's pretty exciting!

"You hear, O LORD, the desires of the afflicted; you encourage them and listen to their cry." Psalm 10:17

bees and tears

"It was the in-between time, before day leaves and night comes, a time I've never been partial to because of the sadness that lingers in the space between going and coming."
-The Secret Life of Bees

surprisingly, this sentence reminded me of coming home from camp. the hour and a half trip back to cheraw that brings dampness to my eyes, especially after spending over a month there. the in-between time brings a terrible sadness because there is nothing to do but sit in your car and reminisce about everything that has happened since the beginning of your time at camp and how quickly it has come to an end. there is nothing to distract you from your thoughts of this wonderful place and the anticipation that exist until your returning. this sadness is hard to express to a car of busy people longing to see you while you try to handle a heart longing for this place of enchantment.

competition

we should have gotten higher at lower state. that's all i have to say. but that's okay, because we all know we're beasts. ;-)

small groups

so. . i love how enthusiastic my Wednesday night small group is about reading God's word! It makes me so happy and excited.

"For I take no pleasure in the death of anyone, declares the Sovereign LORD. Repent and live!"

singing sheep

so it seems like every time i update i say something about missing camp or sumter. that's because i do all the time. I usually just don't say anything about it to people in person because i know it will drive them crazy. Since i can say whatever i want to on here i suppose i take advantage of that and go crazy about how much i miss both of those places. so obviously, i am really missing those wonderful people i know from there a whole lot!
I'm so ridiculously jealous of Andrew White. I cannot believe he got to spend his entire weekend with not only Andy Hack, but also Ashley Porter and Rachel Walton! I'm so ready to see those girls!

But this weekend certainly was a lot of fun! We had our first Bible Bowl competition this weekend. The dancing donkeys (david, leah, and grace) did really well for a group of all beginniners, winning four out of nine rounds. The singing sheep (shari and i) won seven out of nine. we also got most Christ-like team, which was pretty exhilarating! i spent the whole weekend with shari and after we got home from Concord david, shari, mrs. ruth, and i all watched moulin rouge. well, really they watched it, but i slept through most of it because Shari and i went to be really late and we had to get up at 5:30 in the morning to get ready to leave for our competition by 6:30!
but today was really nice. especially getting a chance to hang out with samuel, david, and shari playing star wars monopoly while watching star wars episode II. i don't know how we exactly got on the star wars kick. but it was fun getting to spend some time with the three of them.

but i do wish that i had gotten to spend some more time with anna grace since she was home this weekend.

missing

i miss sumter. . a lot.
I want to talk to Lindsay. I want to hear her EXCITEMENT.

broken

i would say that the Lord was a beast today, but that doesn't seem like a very appropriate word to describe his majesty with. But he was ASTOUNDING!

I cried at church tonight. I found myself completely broken for the world and it's love for sin. I just sat down on the floor and cried.

"Do not make a covenant with them or with their gods. Do not let them live in your land, or they will cause you to sin against me, because the worship of their gods will certainly be a snare to you." Exodus 23:32-33

SC vs. NC. . vs. TX.? ;-)

it was good to see all of them today; lindsay, ben, andrew, hailey, alyssa, erin, elizabeth, megan, chas, uncle carol, aunt kelsey, aunt cheryl, mamama, dadadee, mr. robert, mrs. micheal. It was grand. How i miss camp and sumter.
Then ben and johnathan started arguing about north and south carolina and how much better one is over the other.
I HATE that i have a competition tomorrow.

"I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now." Philipians 1:3-6

dancing

so basically we're beast and the band got first in AA at Irmo. I love Irmo, it's probably all of the juniors' favorite competition (it might have something to do with the fact that that is where our first competition ever was). But anyway, it was a magnificent day and it was so exhilarating to get first there.

Right before the awards ceremony there was a little girl probably younger than five dancing near the goal post. I'm guessing she was imagining herself as a girl in color guard dancing and doing flips even though her attempts ended with her landing on her head. But she still got up and continued to dance in front of all the people sitting in the stands awaiting the results.
It was beautiful. This picture of how we are called to be: completely willing to make fools of ourselves to the world's standards. Of course, this act of silliness is accepted when we are children, but as we grow into adults, our peers begin to judge and see right only as what is in magazines and on television. As children of God we are called to be like the little girl. Simply to step out and just perform and act for Him. No matter how horridly we may fall or fail, we have to get back up and keep dancing. As long as we seek to please our God we will never be abandoned. We must look toward the Lord to guide us and for a constant reminder that we are to glorify him through dancing for him in our daily lives.

"Let them praise his name with dancing and make music to him with tambourine and harp. For the LORD takes delight in his people; he crowns the humble with salvation." Pslam 149:3-4

wrecks and their rediculous increase in numbers. .

Taylor Fisher got in a wreck today, but it's quite a blessing that he is perfectly fine. . other than being angry with the guy that ran into him. So he'll probably be getting a new car. There seem to be an overwhelming amount of wrecks nowadays. .

Tomorrow=Irmo (my favorite competition!) yessssss!
Pray for safe travel for everyone!

firstfruits

"Don't be deceived, my dear brothers. Every good any perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created." James 1:16-18

pray. .

Pray for Aunt Sara.

"Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD" Psalm 31:24

i love mr. robert's belly

so i checked mapquest.com today to see just how far Newberry, South Carolina is from Ambassador Camp. 3 HOURS AND 32 MINUTES! I would be completely willing to ride that far if only i didn't start at four thirty in the afternoon once i had performed at my first band competition of the year.

this weekend was pretty fabulous. I got to see a good many camp people, although it will not begin to make up for the lack of Hobo next weekend.

"Charm can fool you, and beauty can trick you, but a woman who respects the Lord should be praise" Proverbs 31:30

band today. .

our first full run through of the season=a hill i'm so glad we're over!

I'm pretty exhilarated! :-D

holes

i was reading a friend of Ashley Porter's blog the other day and it got me thinking. .

you know, since we have been youngesters in Sunday School we have been taught that we have a God shaped hole in our hearts that only he can fill. So many times we try to fill that space up with relationships or material things, but it never ever works out because He is the only thing that can fill that emptiness in our lives.
Well, how amazing is it to think that God has a Stephanie shaped hole is His heart that only I can fill? Someone can try to fill up my space, but the Lord yearns for a relationship with ME!

"My soul yearns, even faints for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God." Psalm 84:2

thrift store shopping, rawtown coffee, ear piercing, fiesta, and silliness

so today was good. even though i stayed in Cheraw all day, somehow, Anna Grace, Chloe, Shari, Saumel, Kate, David, Jed, Taylor, Rebeka, Banks, and I found things to do all day. It was pretty amazing. And assures me that I really do have fun friends in Cheraw.

passion.

i want this world filled with passion for the Lord. I want to make that my prayer. I want to see Christians grow in Him and feel completly comfortable with other believers. I want walls to break down; be open, completely.

innocence

i miss everything about camp. i really miss the innocence of it. That's one reason I think I want to work with children; their innocence.

I think I will call someone I love. .

the football game (this post has very little to do with the actual game).

i didn't want to go to the away game today. i was hoping it would get rained out or it would be to muddy to play from the rain. Well, we ended up having it. . and guess who i got to see!
ALYSSA AND ERIN!
it was fabulous. I needed to see and talk to those two and oh how marvelous it was! goodness, i wish our time together had been longer!

home.

i have a lot of things I miss.

I had a dream last night and Hilary was in it. . that's probably why I missed her and camp so much today, especially my girls. I'm ready to go home.

thanks for the chill music, andrew.

Caroline asking Andrew about his return to camp this summer: "when are you coming home?"

HURRAY!

so i was talking to a friend tonight on AIM. I met him at SummerSalt a few years ago and we've kept in touch through email, IMs, etc. Lately, I've been praying for him because I felt that he had lost that fire of the Lord that I had seen before. Our talks didn't include how God had been working in his life.

"well im gettin my life straight with god slowly but i am and everyday i get more and more over dani"

Praise the good Lord above! I was so glad to hear from Justin today! Especially news that blessed me so much! I'm so glad that he desires a relationship with the Lord!

first

I don't know about the rest of you girls, but i sure do love when guys take initiative in a friendship. those are the sort of friends that i tresure.
To the guys in my life who have done this lately, great job! ;-D thanks

"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

Romans 5:1-5

my two favorite cheraw boys

my throat hurts from laughing so much with andrew and kevin. oh how I am going to miss those boys! those college kids.

pictures

so i was looking at rebecca's xanga and my camera (which reminds me of her) and i thought that i should update with some random pictures that i've taken with my camera since i got for my birthday and all. .

Kate and me. She has been my third roomie at band camp. I've never had the same one. Oh how we both missed Chloe like CRAZY! Band just isn't quite the same. And the two of us acting REDICULOUS during sectionals. . . and people wonder why we don't have those runs down. actually the two of us have most of them.
My favorite twin acting goofy while wearing. . somebody's sunglasses. .? I'm not sure if they're big enough to be dana's.

Shari and Amiee. I basically love them both. Shari just moved to here from Michigan and she is super smart. The Lord has blessed me with a new Christian friend that I am so excited to get to know! Oh, and she's never eaten at Bojangles!

See that little red dot? Well, that's a gummie bear stuck about twenty feet up on a wall at Francis Marion University. They were going to see if it would stick to the ceiling, but the wall worked.

Some of the seniors rocking it out during our pizza night. Tons of laughs!

Band camp was pretty fun. . but it was different from any other year. I can't really pinpoint why, but it was. Maybe it was simply because I was a junior. .

camp for a month

well, i think i've almost grasped andrew white's obsession with ambassador camp. it's "amazing" (camp i mean, not his obsession). I miss it and everyone there like CRAZY. my goodness, I want to be back. I mean, I did live there for a month.

I MISS AC!

Bored?

Well, I'm home from Ambassador Camp for the night (and I now understand Andrew's obsession). I don't even like that I will not be staying in my bunk tonight. Anyway, I've got a boredom solution for you. If case anyone gets bored you can write me a letter and send it to:

Stephanie Moore
c/o Ambassador Camp
P.O. Box 200
Lake Waccamaw NC, 28450

And if you don't won't to send it on your own then a few of you guys get together and send me one. Of course, I don't expect too much from this, but it would be nice. Send me a letter because getting a letter at Ambassador Camp is like getting extra dessert!

deserving

everyone should have a sumter parallel.

you know. .

sometimes cliches are right. even if you don't wanna admit it.

i love that to God I am absolutely beautiful! I can't wait to be that way to a Godly man. but until then I'll pray for him.

Life has been crazy, but i can see a line between the world and what God wants for me. Of course, I know what is right, but I want to study it more than I have lately.

the wreck

That's right. Andrew, Anna Grace, and I were in a wreck last night and I can't praise the Lord enough that all three of us are alive. We've all got some sort of damage done to us, and unfortunately Andrew's new car is messed up. I don't remember anything about the actual accident. I don't know what it was like having a truck run into the car. The only thing I do remember is waking up right before they took me inside the ambulance and realizing it was night time. Although, I wasn't really waking up, I was hysterical according to Andrew. I just didn't remember what was going on. I have a broken ankle, stiches on my left arm, and badly bruised hip. Andrew as a broken wrist and staples on the back of his head. Anna Grace had a minor concussion and I imagine she is pretty sore just like the rest of us. Either way, I am so glad that all of us made it though the wreck. You usually hear about friends of your friends getting in wrecks, but you hardly ever imagine that it could be you. Remember to buckle up!

hp

I couldn't resist. The theory was way too interesting.


Keys

breaking out of school and skin

I have nothing insightful to say other than. . .

I only have one more blasted day of school left!

That's pretty much it other than the fact that I'm breaking out again and I'm going to the dermatologist Friday.

~fill me

So is this what life will be like? That's pretty uneventful. It probably won't really be this way.

I just sort of realized that I do like random phone calls. I used to not like them that much, but they make me smile. ;-D To think that people call to talk to me, just to me. They can't ask for anyone else or just leave me to talk to anyone else because the only person around is me. They make me feel good.

I should have gone running today, instead I took a nap. Now I feel gross. . . and like I wasted all afternoon.

And since I'm not doing much I think I shall go outside. Have a quiet time. Just get my Sara Bailey chance to breathe. . in the evening.

thank you!

I feel like I've been in a polo all weekend. I wore a lavender one yesterday to solo and ensemble. Today I wore a minty turquoise one all day. Speaking of solo and ensemble, that went pretty well. A superior and an excellent.
Next week is going to be quite busy. Something different every night. Monday I've got the INTERACT meeting; tuesday, band practice right after school and Bradley's chorus concert or the FCA rally later that night; Wednesday, church and signing practice; Thursday I've got a band concert; and on Friday I might be going with Andrew, Collin, and Kevin to see Austin Crane in Hartsville.
I'm ready for school to get out! Of course, who isn't? Well actually, I'm not looking forward to school getting out because the class of 2006 will be graduating and that will be. . . i'm not sure what word is appropriate here because sad doesn't convey the emotion i am feeling for all of those seniors.

Don't go against what you know is right and what you know is God's will. Forcing something isn't a good thing. You miss out on so much peace, and oh how wonderful peace is! Go read Romans 5:1-5, maybe you'll get what I'm saying if you don't already.

words

"But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned."
-Matthew 12:36-37

Ambassador Camp.. and Prom!

yes! so I FINALLY got the chance to go and a pretty good time. And am quite excited about this summer. Pictures might be available at a later date.

Oh yes, so prom was absolutely lovely and I really had a GREAT time. I actually danced this year, and I think that if Andrew and I had stayed a bit longer I would have danced a good bit more. But Andrew seemed rather tired, and there would be no point without someone to dance with..well, actually there would I guess, just to have fun, but anyway. Here are a few pictures, but there are none of us actually at prom.

This is probably one of "my" favorite tasks of prom..just kidding, I really am no good at pinning the this thing. . ."Mom!"

Most everyone that was out at Blair's grandparents house, minus a few: from back left to right bottom: Braden, Andrew, Bryce, Duralle, Ronnie, Richie, Davidson, Landon, Kris, Justin, Blair, Elizabeth, Regina, Andria, Cory, Megan, me, Madeline, and Angel!

greatness..

My God is not done with me yet.

He can mold me.

It's good to have my father home!!!

Elizabeth's birthday party..

" I broke glass."

And Daddy is home!!!

Yesterday was a good and funny day!

spring break..in a few words

well, i got my first set of stitches over spring break. Ask me about it next time you see me if you want to hear the story.


Oh, and I found my prom dress. It's a fantastic shade of green. Well, actually there are many many shades of green (and a little blue).


I also finished the fifth Harry Potter book and have now moved on to the sixth.

I think I will go read that now and then get ready for bed.


This morning I read in Isaiah that "...tongues of fire lick up straw..." it gave me an interesting mental picture.



"And they were calling to one another:
Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;
the whole earth is full of his glory"
-Isaiah 6:3


I'm pretty sure i subconsciously stole Lindsay's sometimes formant of her xanga for my posts..

Let it all out

"and today i'll trust you with a confidence of a man who's never known defeat,
but tomorrow upon hearing what I did, i will stare at you in disbelief..
Oh inconsistant me
Crying out for consistancy...
remember the end will justify, the pain it took to get us there."

-Relient K





"Do not be in a hurry to leave the king's presence.."
Ecclesiastes 8:3



Pray for my daddy. He's in Mexico..and there's no set date for his return.

Acquire the Fire!

Acquire the Fire was so fun. It was an awesome experience, and I don't know why my church doesn't go! Anyway, that's not my point. Not only was ATF itself fun, but so was meeting all the people that went with us! I finally met Ben Miller from Ambassador Camp and I must say, he is a rather hilarious guy! And I love the face..I can't even explain that one. Oh yeah, so unfortunatly for Andrew, Collin, Kevin, and I Kevin got sick and didn't even get to go to ATF! It was pretty crazy, but his ticket sure didn't go to waste! Ben the Army Man got to use it! He was pretty cool too. I really respected all he does and people like him. (Andrew (who's a little cut off, Ben, Collin, and Ben). The group was just fantastic. I can't say enough about all the people I met (or the ones I already knew like Rebekah and Lindsay)! And the Preddy's (the people who we stayed with) were absolutely wonderful! They were so nice!
The skit was really awesome, and worship was great. There were times that I wished Lisa Gungor was a man though. She was a cool worship leader, all the same. God is so amazing. I praise Him now for his creations.

Rebekah!

Lindsay!
I had a wonderful time!

My Bones Family Horcrux Theory

Supposing that all knowledge of Helga Hufflepuff's cup being one of Voldemort's seven horcruxes is completely correct, we must ask ourselves, where is it? I, Ginny Weasley, believe it is somewhere hidden among the Bones' family treasures.
Susan Bones, Harry Potter's fellow sixth year, is put into Hufflepuff immediately after the Sorting Hat's placement on her head. We find more information about her family as the series progress. Mr. and Mrs. Bones, Susan's grandparents are killed during the first war against You-Know-Who. Before their death they gave birth to three children; Edgar, Amelia, and Susan's father. Edgar was an original member of the Order of the Phoenix. Edgar is said to be "a great wizard," according to Mad-Eye Moody. During the war Edgar was killed with his wife and children (note the plural form). Amelia Bones was Head of the Department of Magical Law Enforcement, but is never said to have been in either Order (I am not sure if this is in anyway significant). Amelia also was over Harry's hearing. Tonks continually reminded Harry that because Amelia was hones and fair he would be sure to get off. Is Tonks' point more than describing Amelia's character? The key trait of Hufflepuff is fairness. Why is this revealed to us? Later in the books it is announced that Amelia has been killed. Strangely enough, Fudge, who is denying Lord Voldemort's return claims that Voldemore himself murdered Amelia. When counted, there have been no less that seven deaths in the Bones family, tracing back to Lord Voldemort and/or his followers. Why has J.K. Rowling included so much about this family (other than to make this theory wrong)? Why hasn't Susan's immediate family been attacked? Are they next?
-Ginny Weasley

Read..

James 4:1-12

It gave me some interesting thoughts today.

this weekend

I left for Sumter Friday right after school. Of course it was a wonderful time. I hung out with Megan and Elizabeth Friday night. I realized just how much Elizabeth really is like Andrew. Amazing.

Today Andrew, Lindsay, Alyssa, Latete, Rebekah Richardson, Ronnie, Brett and I all went out to Swan Lake, one of my favorite places in Sumter. It's so pretty, and I love the Love Tree. Lindsay took a lot of pictures and there might be some tomorrow, but no promises at the moment. It was just a beautiful day.

The homeschoolers had their prom Friday night and Alyssa and Erin looked beautiful!

Lindsay and I got some chatting time in this morning. It was nice. Wow, that seems like such a long time ago and tomorrow starts early. It's time for bed.

our one year anniversary (nicole and me, that is!)

""there are many many crazy things
that will keep me loving you
and with your permission, may i list a few?

the way you wear your hat
the way you sip your tea
the memory of all that
oh not they can't take that away from me
the way your smile just beams
the way you sing off key
the way you haunt my dreams
oh no they can't take that away from me...
i will always hold the memory of
they way you hold your knife
the way we danced until three
the way you changed my LIFE..."

LOL frank sinatra! happy anniversery!!! Love you" -Latete (Nicole)

So I basically love Nicole. And I'm so blessed that I know her! I cannot believe I've known her for a year.
I called her, actually Andrew did, Erin, and Alyssa to let them know we've known each other for a year and how great it is to know them!

:-D

I cannot attempt to put into words the worship of tonight. God is so amazing. I was listening to Thomas tonight at SNL and my thoughts just started to trail off. Some where, in the mists of all of them, I thought about how awesome it would be if Collin, Kevin, Andrew, and I got together tonight and just talked about out spiritual lives right now and how we can pray about each other before Acquire the Fire. I really wanted this to work out. I called Kevin as soon as I could and he sounded really up to the talk. Collin did when I talked to him right after church. Andrew wasn't so sure, but amazingly enough it was one of the greatest things God ever put on my heart to do. We talked about what we needed to do right now and things we'd done in our pasts. We talked about a ton of things and it was just lovely. It was a great opportunity to talk with the three boys (and really individuals) I've spent the most time with over the past year or so. Of the long time we've been such good friends, (though we have had downtimes) we've never had anything like that. I want to do it so much more! I want this sort of fellowship.

The four of us really must be the oddest people at the high school, but I love it. How many people can talk about their relationship with Christ in one of their front yards and just enjoy themselves? I love those boys!

I love you LORD!

jealous

I am so jealous that Andrew can play the piano...and I can't.

kevin and andrew make me smile

Tonight was fun. Andrew and Kevin came over for dinner and we just hung out (on my family's new furniture) afterwards. It was nice, and even though we didn't talk for a long time or talk very deeply, I felt so close to them. Closer that I've felt to both of them, at the same time, in a long time. I can NOT wait until Acquire the Fire!

"So I prayed, Oh dear LORD, Feel me up, make me whole.." -Relient K

Go read Colossians 3:2-10 and renew yourself.

It's SPRING!

Yep, in my book it is offically spring, even though it's not even really the season. Today seemed to mark it. Boys at school had on shorts and it made me smile to myself. It's time to see flowers, to feel clean, and I go outside without a jacket. There were birds singing this afternoon when Andrew and I went walking. Oh the weather was so nice! And there were so many people at the park other than Andrew and me. Landon, Hannah Marsh, and Beka were there too. While Andrew and I were walking we decided it run. Yes, I know, Andrew and I aren't really the sort of running people, but we did run. And it really made me feel good even though it wasn't very long (I really out of shape!). The whole day was rather refreshing.

Please continue to not only pray for Mrs. Reta Smith, but also for her family, especially her husband and little Garrett. I don't know how they're going through this.

I hope Andrew and I get to go to Sumter this weekend..

music

"You are more beautiful than anyone one EVER! Everyday you're the same you never change. NO NEVER!" ~David Crowder Band

I want to be the girl that sang this song and showed that love I have for Him with everyone. I want to be like Him and never change from that girl that He shines through! I have to be that girl again first.

"How could you be so good to me?!" ~David Crowder Band

"Over coming these obstacles is over coming my fears. Never under estimate my Jesus. You're telling me that there's no hope, I'm telling you, you're wrong!..." Relient K

"I AM FREE! I am free to run! I am free to dance! I am free to live for you! I am free!" Acquire the Fire CD

You know, I really am free to live for Him, to worship His greatness and not be told by the government not to, I should exercise this like I know it. Right now it seems to be a useless freedom. "How great is our God?"

I want to be the loud mouth who was loud because she was bursting with love from her Jesus! I NEED TO BE

BOLD!

yucky

The past few days have been abnormally stressful. I've just had a hard time figuring out some things (not that they are all figured out now). I've had really awful feelings and I would seriously rather be physically sick (not with a disease, just physically feeling awful) than feel the way I do. I'm on the edge a lot, but I do a pretty good job putting on a mask so no one really realizes anything is wrong.

I don't think I am the only person that's having emotional problems right now.

Often I've found myself wishing I had the assurance I have with God in all my relationships. Not that people are letting me down necessarily, I just don't feel confident in them. I know God will always be there for me and I have absolute assurance he will never leave me. I mean, come on, he's already died for every sin I have and will ever do, why would he abandon me now? Christ is so amazing!

I've had a hard time with so much lately. Pray for me.

I love Mrs. Lyall White! <3

New Layout

Suprised you, huh? Yep, a new layout and when I say new layout I mean it's not a blogger template that I've been forced to used over the past two or so years I've had this blog. It's fun and new, and hopefully, it will be changed a lot more often.

Well, this has been a pretty uneventful weekend. I was sick on Friday and now Andrew is sick. He's had a bit of a fever though, I never had anything that bad, just a cough and feeling crummy. Hopefully he'll feel better tomorrow and since we have a day off we can squeeze in something to do to count this weekend as something.

I did get a good opportunity to see Him and His amazing self more clearly.

<3

me..?

I have very little to say,



but I do need to talk with a few.



I'm emotionally tired...yet



at the same time, I couldn't be more awake.

"...Convince me, because I really need your help. Oh convince me, because I can't see this for myself..."

Phone Calls..

Have you ever called someone's house at night and as soon as the phone rings you realize there are other people in their house who were probably asleep and you might have woken them up? Well, I'm so glad God's not like that. I can call on Him any time I want to! He'll be right there for me and I don't have to worry about something silly. God doesn't judge me and isn't a family member that might be angered when His help is needed or when I just need someone to talk to. He is wonderful.

My Captain!

Oh how I kidney Anna Grace! It was so awesome talking to her tonight! Could she be my "Ashley Porter?"

Yay for "Romantic Comedy Soundtrack 90s" Music!

"...Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine." -Isaiah 43:1

a bubble bath

I took a bubble bath tonight. It was good and now I smell like Sweet Pea. I was sitting there listening to David Crowder Band and started playing with the bubbles. It reminded me of being a child and how I now need to have child-like faith with Jesus, to lean completly on Him for everything. I need to be like a child and absorb everything He gives me in life and understand that it is straight from God. He is so amazing.

today, etc.

Well, today was probably the best day I've had all week. It was definatly interesting. Andrew, Kevin (yeah, the same Kevin that Andrew hasn't spoke to in four months), and I went out to Fiesta. It was a little akward, but I think maybe it was good. I don't think that Kevin and Andrew are going to be best friends again, but hopefully they can get past the weird, I don't have any idea what to say to you stage. When I talked to Kevin on the phone to ask him if he wanted to go he said he missed me. I missed the Kevin that I knew the week before anything awful happened.
Anyway, Anna Grace, Captain Crunch, will be coming to Cheraw this weekend and I'm excited about hanging out with her and Chloe (she needs a cereal name!). I think the plan might be to go to the basketball game, spend the night at Chloe's and then go to Hartsville and Chloe will be driving. But I'm not sure if that's going to go through, the going to Hartsville part, just because Chloe hasn't had her license that long. I really want everything to work out though!
Well, I need a whole lot more Jesus time. I know that if I miss Him, then of course He misses me.
Rachel, thanks for the comment! You are a beautiful daughter of God!

This weekend, etc.

This weekend was pretty fantastic, to say the least. This post would probably be more effective if I had written it Saturday night though. Anyway, Friday night Andrew, Fenisha, Majik, Dorterra, and I went to the basketball game in Andrew Jackson (AJ!). That was pretty cool just considering I hadn't really done anything with Fenisha, Dorterra, and Majik outside of school.
Saturday was probably the best. Andrew, Fenisha, Duralle, Dorterra and I celebrated Fenisha's birthday with a trip to Rockingham and Laurinburg. After the long ride from Fenisha's house to Laurinburg to go skating we find out that it closes at 3 p.m. (which was in about thirty minutes) and doesn't open back up until 7 p.m. because of a private party or something like that. So we finally decided to go to Fatz Cafe (Fenisha's probably favorite place of all time to eat) in Rockingham for what ends up being an extremely late lunch (or early dinner, you decide). We're off and when we get there we probably ended up going through about 5 or so baskets of the amazing rolls and we all have a taste of Duralle's sexy salad (don't ask! Nothing perverted by the way, it was a salad!). We ate until we were all about to EXPLODE and then remember that it's Fenisha's birthday and she can get a free cake. And of course she couldn't finish it off herself (well, maybe she should, we just didn't give her the chance) so we all ate a bit of it. Well, finally we left and we start back to Laurinburg to go skating, but we ended up getting their earlier than expected so we end up going to SUPER WALMART! I finally got another chance to by another tube of amazing "Complete moisture" chapstick with Dimethicone. I really love chapstick. That was a fun trip to Walmart. Well, finally we got to go skating, and believe it or not I never fell! Actually, I think Andrew was the only one of us who did and it was only once!! That's pretty astounding. After a while I got pretty tired of skating though, so Andrew, Dorterra, and I stopped at watched a bunch of people dancing which was pretty funny. Finally around 10 or so we headed home. The whole day was just great (even if it sounds ridiculously boring right now!)
Well, I'm pretty cotton pickin' excited about this weekend because I'm really missing Anna Grace! We need to make plans, darling!

That reminds me of one of my old, immature posts, but I don't think that's really an awful thing..

I always try to think of these things after I type

It's rather hard to type with a band-aid wrapped around the tip of your left index finger. Ts are especially hard.
I need some girl time. And with girls I don't often get to hang out with. Anna Grace, I need you here. I long for your beautiful spirit. So often I don't think I'm open enough with you, but I know that you wouldn't judge me if I talked to you. I love you! We should get together with Chloe and just take a day off like we did when we went to the Renaissance Festival. I'm wearing the necklace you bought me in that picture! --->
I have learned so much about how I should act lately, but I don't act upon it. It makes me feel gross. I need to focus my time with Him so much more. Oh how we loves me!

"The LORD appeared to Abram and said, "To your offspring I will give this land." So he built an altar there to the LORD, who had appeared to him." Genesis 12:7

"Adapt--willingly. Just because I know I can does not mean I WILL!!"~Me
I wrote this today thinking about those things I learned about myself from that leadership thing. Yeah, sure I act willing, but it's one of those masks I have.

I posted this awful picture of me and two beautiful girls of God's creation (Alma and Anna) because I've been thinking about going on a mission trip lately. Probably because Andrew's had his Global Expeditions magazine out the other day. If I did go I would probably go to Guatemala, Costa Rica, or Peru. Most likely in that order. I don't know if that is what God has in store for me this summer though. I have gotten soooooo slack!!
I'm stressed out and don't realize it..I guess that a huge contradiction seeing as I just stated it, but I think I just really admitted it. Pray for me! Leave comments so I will know how you need me to pray for you!!!
That was a very open post. :-D

What a colorful weekend!

So, this weather is going crazy! One day it's super hot and the next it's freezing! You can never figure out what to wear!
Anyway, so I had a wonderful time in Sumter. Thanks for taking me again, Andrew! I love all of his family. Anyway, Friday night I spent the night at Erin's house and got to meet Tiffany! Yay! That was a lot of fun, but unfortunately I was really super tired and we didn't spend a lot of time talking. Saturday I picked corn with Erin, Alyssa (she spent the night with Erin too), Tiffany, Andrew, Jonathan, Elizabeth (Erin's little sister), and Erin's dad, Joel. It was Tiffany and mine's first time doing that, but it was cool. We threw corn at each other, etc., etc...
Later that day we all took showers and Lindsay cut Alyssa's black (now with cherry red) hair and it's to her shoulders. :-D Lindsay and Alyssa both put cherry red in their hair. Andrew thought I wouldn't do something like that. I guess you could say I proved him wrong when I went to Walmart and let Lindsay put "copper blast" on my hair. She did an amazing job!!! It's awesome! Here are some pictures that I "stole" from Lindsay's xanga...

Erin, Alyssa, and me before the trip to Walmart and the "copper blast". Oh yeah, Alyssa flipped my hair out like that too. I love those girls! I love the girl taking that picture too ;-)!
Andrew, Jonathan, and me waiting for the blast to take effect! They tried to get a little bit of their hair orange too. I think their hair is too dark, though. You can only see the tiniest bit on the tips of a bit of Andrew's hair.
And finally, the new hair color after a fabulous styling job by Andrew and Alyssa! You can't see it super well, but it sure is a good bit darker! Oh yeah, it's supposed to come out after 8-10 shampoos, but my mom thinks it will stay in longer.
This weekend was a lot of fun, but I've got the rest of today and ALL tomorrow to have even more fun. Oh yeah, Alyssa, Erin, Andrew, and I took "Seventh Heaven" pictures...if they turn out well, there will be more to come!

AC

"O Lord, you have searched me and you know me you know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; You are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. You hem me in---behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?" Psalm 139:1-7

I pretty much really would totally LOVE to go to Ambassador Camp this summer. I am just about sickly jealous of Andrew and all his beautiful camp friends.
I absouletly love listening to Austin Crane and his band.

overthinking

I look and think into things WAAAAAAYYYYYY too much!!!

comments

I wonder where my picture of Andrew, Lindsay, Alyssa, Megan, Elizabeth, Erin, Jonathan, and me at that band competition is...I really want it.
Yeah. I'm pretty much not in the writing mood right now..more like in the comment giving mood. I wish you were too...could you leave me one? ;-) Have a marvelous day!

I owe so much..

"Surely God is my help;
the Lord is the one who sustains me. "
~Psalm 54:4